Monday, March 15, 2010

Our Angel is 2!

This is my newest treasure that my neighbor did for us. It has Jayden's real hand molds so Mommy can always remember.
The birthday party was a bit cold and windy! We sang and ate in the car where it was warmer!

Our Angel Baby turned 2 a few days ago! I can't believe how fast time goes by. We had a little birthday party at the cemetery; but ended up in the car for most of it because of the wind and rain. (The rest of this gets a bit long, but I wanted to tell the story. Every once in awhile some unsuspecting friend at the grocery store or the Pumpkin Walk asks an innocent question like "How many kids do you have?" and they get the "whole" story. Sometimes I don't feel like just saying that I have 2 boys, so I tell them I have 3 and I'm sure they get more of an answer than they wanted! --Oh well huh?)

When I was 17 weeks along with Jayden I started to have some bleeding. My doctor checked a few things and we didn't know the source but the Dr. said that often times light bleeding isn't too serious. So we waited a few more weeks and got more and more nervous. After the course of several days and several special ultra-sounds we determined that it was probably a placental abruption (a spot where the placenta detaches from the uterus wall.) We could never see the exact spot on any ultra sounds but we found out that a lot of women have an abruption and bleeding through their whole pregnancy and are fine.

At 21 weeks I started to have contractions early one Monday morning. We went to the hospital and got all admited. Within a few hours of being there the contractions stopped and nothing had happened. We did find the abruption site and find out it was a boy! There was no dialating and so they sent us home.

The next day we went to the Dr.'s office to talk with him and he was so positive. He wanted me to see a specialist from Salt Lake that would be coming up in about 3 weeks and he told us the baby would probably come early, but not too early. We left there so optimistic! I called Bruce's mom and mine and told them that things would be just fine.

Late that night the contractions started again and we waited for them to just go away. They didn't and so we called the Dr. He told us to come to the hospital if they didn't go away soon. Well, the contractions got really irregular and we didn't want to go to the hospital just to be sent home again. Finally things were getting pretty painful and we went to the hospital.

After being there for awhile and getting settled the nurse came to check me and said that I had started to dialate. Within minutes of that she told us that Jayden would be born and that we needed to start thinking of a funeral home we wanted to work with! I was completely blown away. I still figured that my contractions would stop and we would go home. I think Bruce and I were both in shock. My doctor called within minutes and talked to me on the phone for awhile before he came over.

Without being too dramatic or depressing, Jayden was born a few hours later. We was alive for about 15 minutes in the hospital where we held him, loved him, and kissed him. Our parents and family were able to hold him and we gave him a name and a blessing in the hospital room. My favorite memory was while I was holding him I brushed his forehead with one of my fingers and he scrunched up his tiny forehead that cute way that babies do. Being born at 21 weeks he was just too small to survive and so he returned to his Heavenly Father until we get him again.

We really felt like our Doctor and nurses were the best around and we were so glad we lived close to family. It makes it easier to think that we will be able to see our little Jayden again someday. Having two wonderful boys on Earth makes it a little easier but we never forget our angel baby!


mckenzie said...

Happy Birthday Jayden!

Brittney Q. said...

I can't believe it's been 2 years. Things like that give you a good reason to live right because he's waiting for you on the other side. :)

Shanna said...

Val, I am so happy you shared that story. I never knew exactly what happened and it is a hard thing to ask.
I love the tiny hand molds, they are precious.
You are so lucky to have 3 beautiful boys!

Cami said...

You sure are good at getting me to cry. The molds are so awesome. I'm glad you posted this to help us all remember little Jayden.

Jacob and Carla said...

Thanks for sharing that story Valerie. Happy Birthday Jayden. How great is it that we have the gospel and the knowledge of eternal families.

Natalie said...

Valerie, it was good to find you too! I'm so sorry about your loss but so glad you are dealing with it in a healthy way. You have darling little boys!

Melissa said...

I have never heard this story, and I have over active tear ducts, so it totally made me cry. What a beautiful gift of the hands and picture, I can't even imagine holding such a tiny baby. My sister in law works for the "now I lay me down to sleep foundation" and takes pictures for families whose babies pass away or are stillborn, and everytime she talks about it, I can't even talk about it. it just chokes me up. They truely are little angels!!! Happy Birthday!

Deb said...

What a precious gift that is. Happy Birthday to your angel baby. Thanks for sharing your story. Hugs, friend.

Andrea said...

Val, thanks for sharing your story. It made me cry. What a difficult thing to go through. I can't even imagine. Happy Birthday to you Angel baby.